I've finally reached another big milestone in the cancer awards ceremony. No more scans. All the results may not be in, but as far as I'm concerned, it'll be slouch-sock day in hell before I get another tin injection, breath into a tube or have a host of electrodes taped to my chest. I'm done.
My veins are calloused now, like for reals. There is no such thing as a painless poke anymore and likely never will be again. So although I still have a handful of Herceptin injections left to do over the summer months (nothing zexier than an IV bruise and a bikini), and perhaps one more bloodwork request, I should be free of all extraneous pokes. I can live my life in blissful ignorance again - pretend I chose the pixie hair and was born with tiny boobies. Act like it was all bloody up to me.
With my last test yesterday, I was waiting for the show to begin and heard the song Judy in Disguise playing in the lab. When I was six I used to shake my hips to that song and swing my Holly Hobby purse like a madwoman, demanding my parents watch me until the music stopped. Riveting stuff. If I can grab a baby toenail amount of that innocence back and erase every hospital visit from my memory in the meantime, I'm golden, Ponyboy.
My Goddess, you have a memory of your childhood that makes me quiver with nervousness! I think I remember you dancing in front of us and demanding our attention, but I didn't remember the songs. The Judy in Disguise video was a hoot. It helped me remember your dad's neru suit (powder blue) and the mini skirt I made to wear with my big brown boots!
ReplyDeleteYou've come a long way baby and you'll never go back there. Enjoy every day; they whizz by especially when you are well. Love you, AJ
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ReplyDeleteditto to all the above. I just wanted to say that i have been re-reading your earlier posts (a number of times) and i want to Thank you for being so candid about your procedures and your feelings. I appreciated it at the time of your writing; however, given my situation, your blogs are even more appreciated!! So, -selfishly- i'm looking forward to many more of your blogs. I think of you as the 'poster child'. love and hugs, shirley.
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